Art by ArtDoge Been feeling the Blizzard bug nibbling at me lately. As much as I would love to dive back into Azeroth and prepare for the new expansion to World of Warcraft, there are a lot of things I need to take care of in the real world first. Things have been quiet on… Continue reading Merely A Setback
Tag: self
The New Diagnosis
First things first: the vlog returns next week. Balthazar is back up and running, things are smooth there, and I have plenty of spoons to illustrate the Spoon Theory for folks who are unfamiliar. So, stay tuned for that. At the expense of being blunt: I trigger people. People’s feelings are not invalid. Nor are… Continue reading The New Diagnosis
I Am My Own Ex
“If you treated a partner the way you treat yourself, would you tolerate it?” Short answer: no. Long answer: I’d dump my ass the way I was dumped. Long nights of contemplation and bouts of fighting back tears have reinforced that I was not abandoned out of a lack of love. It was limits of… Continue reading I Am My Own Ex
The Open Letter
This is Josh. The real Josh. The Josh that should have been here all along. The Three Gratitudes Thank you for reading this. So much of this has needed to be said… well, written… for a very long time. Garbage and bullshit has clouded so many of my perceptions, caused so much projection of anxieties… Continue reading The Open Letter
Zone Control
Paradoxically, talking about comfort zones makes me uncomfortable. Not because they are strange things, or because I don’t understand them. I do. I know consent is a vital, essential thing, and you cannot and should not cross into someone else’s comfort zone without that consent. When you do, apologize and back out. At least, if… Continue reading Zone Control
Vlog #3: "The Zone"
Click here to watch the vlog! Comfort zones! Being uncomfortable! And talking about it, whee! Would you like to know more? Watch as I try to keep it together. If you like what I’m doing with these, please feel free to subscribe or support me on Patreon. Thanks in advance!
Feeling Like Dying
Suicide discussion follows. Be forewarned. For someone who no longer has the impulse to commit suicide, I think about it quite a bit. It’s a feeling. I talked about feelings earlier this week. I know that my suicidal thoughts, and the attached feelings, are not invalid. I have no intention of acting upon them, so… Continue reading Feeling Like Dying
Vlog #2: "The Feels"
We’re going to talk about feelings! YOUR feelings. Are feelings valid? Can you feel more than one feeling at once? Do feelings have consequences? I answer all of these questions from my perspective. I hope you find it insightful, useful, or at least interesting. If you like what I’m doing with these, please feel free… Continue reading Vlog #2: "The Feels"
Poem: "It's 2015"
In addition to the vlog, on the 1st of every month, I’m recording the reading of a poem I’ve written. The first one, here, was written around the time of my last birthday. I don’t imagine to have great skill as a poet, as longer-form fiction has long been my writing focus, but I hope… Continue reading Poem: "It's 2015"
Shadows and Silence
We have no control over the shadows we cast. For the purposes of this piece, the ‘shadow’ I refer to is not the Jungian concept of the ‘Shadow’ unconscious self, but rather the way others perceive us when we are not directly interacting with them. Just to be clear. As inherently social beings, we meet… Continue reading Shadows and Silence
