Tag: bipolar disorder

The Need To Break Through

break·​through | \ ˈbrāk-ˌthrü \ 3a: a sudden advance especially in knowledge or technique The Merriam-Webster Dictionary We all have obstacles between where we are, and where we need to be. Notice that I used need, as opposed to want. For the purposes of this discussion, I’m talking about our mental and emotional states. What we need in order to… Continue reading The Need To Break Through

The Importance of Being Honest

Let me kick this off with some honesty: I still maintain standards for myself that are, at times, unrealistic or too exacting. When I expect myself to be flawless in my Magic gameplay, or further along in my personal goals than is realistic, I will still get incredibly frustrated with myself. It can shift those… Continue reading The Importance of Being Honest

The Challenge of New Choices

There are some things in our lives that we don’t get to choose. I didn’t choose to be born bipolar or bisexual. People close to me didn’t choose how they were born, either. Naturally, others will treat those things as if they are choices, saying things like “just try being the gender you were born… Continue reading The Challenge of New Choices

500 Words on Entitlement

Here’s a simple question: what do you feel you are owed? If you put in hours and hours of your time at a job, you are owed compensation for that time, right? That’s how jobs work. If your employer says they don’t owe you anything, you have rights. You can sue their asses. You earned… Continue reading 500 Words on Entitlement

An Open Letter of Apology

"The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in ourselves."

In a previous post, I endeavored to explore and explain the root cause of the damaging, self-sabotaging, and toxic behaviors that lead me to my most recent hospitalization and the ramifications still being felt by those who were once partners, friends, and associates. I opened with a general apology, but did not dig into the… Continue reading An Open Letter of Apology

Getting Good at Starting Over

Hi. It’s been a while. And I’m not sure we’ve actually met. I don’t think this is comfortable for anyone involved. There are a lot of people, who saw who I was and tried to be there for me, that think of me or look in my direction and are completely baffled by or uncertain… Continue reading Getting Good at Starting Over

500 Words on Happiness

HOLY SHIT IT’S A NEW BLOG POST I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how much time I’ve lost, or has been stolen from me, because I’ve been unhappy. Unhappily married, unhappily employed, unhappily living. As human beings, nobody would choose to be unhappy, save for the willfully masochistic, and I’m not one of them.… Continue reading 500 Words on Happiness

A Pawn No Longer

“There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.” — Denis Waitley I know this is a long post. Thank you for reading it in its entirety. Let’s begin at the beginning. I was diagnosed with Type II Bipolar Disorder 14 years ago at… Continue reading A Pawn No Longer