By myself. For myself. It’s a mantra I’ve adopted since things melted down for me last October. I’ve taken a step back from a variety of social situations and interests, even moreso in the light of more recent events. It’s been made clear to me that despite the appeal of living in the moment and… Continue reading The Road To Recovery
Category: Current Events
Ex-Enforcer
Despite living with it for over two decades, I know very little about grief. I know that it confuses me, makes me angry, aggravates my pain, and informs some of my worst decisions. Living with a fear of failure and loss that puts the sword of Damocles to shame has lent my personality an intensity… Continue reading Ex-Enforcer
Living In A Mixed State
So, for those of you who don’t know, I have bipolar disorder. The chemical makeup of my brain is such that receptors for both higher emotional states (described as “mania” or “hypomania”) and lower ones (your classic “depression”) are susceptible to inexplicable, unconscious, and sometimes sudden change. In the past, people have described the disorder… Continue reading Living In A Mixed State
Twenty Sixteen
I’m not big on New Year’s resolutions. I mean, I get the concept. Setting a goal for the year ahead isn’t a bad thing in and of itself. Admirable, even. The problem I see is that few people really commit to changing themselves. Gym memberships go unused within a month or two, new diets get… Continue reading Twenty Sixteen
Returning to Flash Fiction
To say that things have been in upheaval lately would be an understatement. Things like “returning to a regular blogging schedule” and “maintaining a solid fanbase” have been something of a lower priority as I’ve sorted out housing, managed my barista schedule, and generally gotten more settled into this next phase of my life. How… Continue reading Returning to Flash Fiction
I AM NOT DEAD
Well, I suppose if you follow me on any social media outlets, you’re aware of the fact that I’m not dead. So this is non-news. BUT MY BLOG IS NOT DEAD EITHER. I am recovering from some truly reeling blows in my personal life, and slowly but surely establishing a baseline. Building a foundation for… Continue reading I AM NOT DEAD
Self-Care For Artistic Types
This is for those of you out there trying to create something new. Bucking trends. Swimming upstream. Letting your dreams come to life through one medium or another. You’re making art. Good. Please take care of yourself. I know, I know. Pot, kettle. I’ve been struggling with self-care, myself. Seeing therapists, taking medication, working through… Continue reading Self-Care For Artistic Types
I Am Not Okay
“Everything is terrible and nothing is not on fire.” I’m sure most of the people who read this know, but for those of you don’t, I’ve been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. This consists of cycling between two modes of thought and mood: depression and mania. In my case, as my disorder is less severe than… Continue reading I Am Not Okay
We'll Never Be Royals
“You should write about all of this,” my father suggested. “And then write a book about it.” He’s referring to some of the recent events in my life. Things that have changed it forever. Events have occurred that are forcing me to put the brakes on a lot of the interests and intentions that have… Continue reading We'll Never Be Royals
Return Of The Blue
I can’t even begin to fully articulate what the last few weeks have been like for me. Hospital. Near-eviction. Rapid, rabid mood swings. Disastrous car trouble. More car trouble. Moving. PAX. Yelling. Broken phones. Tears. And yet… Here I am. Whole. Unbowed. Determined. Unbent. Successful. Unbroken. If I can survive this, I can probably survive… Continue reading Return Of The Blue
